This topic has been taking up a lot of my mental space for the last few months, and for some reason, I’ve been avoiding talking about it, but I need to just get it off my chest.
I’ve been dying to remodel our kitchen since we purchased our home in 2017, and earlier this year, I mentioned we started planning the reno for 2024. Some back story, which you may or may not know, but when Angelo and I bought our house in June of 2017, we were both living with our parents because my ~ v traditional~ Italian parents forbade us from living together before being wed. But we were getting married in November, so we felt rushed to buy a house with the little savings we had because *heaven forbid* we still lived with our parents after we were married while looking for the perfect house.
So we settled, and almost immediately knew we didn’t want to be here forever. We always talk about the “what if” houses that we looked at, which at the time, were not too far out of our price range, and I seriously regret not pursuing them because if we just went for it, they could have been our forever homes. Like, beautiful, spacious, center hall colonials that didn’t cost much more than our lifeless bi-level.
Oh, the blissful pre-Covid market.
But for the last few months, we’ve been torn about what to do about our kitchen since we both don’t want to be here forever and have been talking about moving within the next 5ish years (if the market ever gets better).
With that said, we decided that we’re going to leave the kitchen as-is because the appliances are decent, and ultimately, I don’t want to spend money on a kitchen unless it’s going to be exactly what I want. And to be blunt, the value of our house just isn’t worth what I want to do, especially in a non-forever home. My style is too grand for our home/area.
It’s a hard pill for me to swallow because I’ve been scheming up kitchen ideas for years, and I was beyond excited to watch it come to life while sharing the process on my blog and IG. I really do think our kitchen has a lot of potential.
One of my many kitchen inspiration photos by Maddie Hughes Design
But thinking long term, I’d rather save that money for a dream house instead of spending it on a dream kitchen in a non-forever house.
We may make some minor updates, but nothing like I’ve dreamed and schemed. I’m not the type of person of who wants to spend time or energy on a sub-par space; I either go all out and create the room of my dreams, or nothing.
Instead, we’re going to focus on the areas of our house that could really use the improvement; mostly the pool, deck, and fence, and save the large sum of money we’d be spending on our next home…
whenever that comes (if ever).
I just want to recognize that we are *extremely* lucky and very privileged to even have a home, a decent-sized one at that. We are also grateful to both be able to work from home, as we each have our own bedroom to use as our office. But we’d like to, at some point, expand our family, which means our 4-bedroom space will be limited.
Our house is a decent size, but I’d be lying if I said I’ve never wanted more. I don’t necessarily long for a much larger house, just a better house. I’ve lived in a bi-level house my whole life, and my dream is to live in a house that actually has an inkling – just a glimmer of character.
With the decision to not move forward with a kitchen renovation, I’ve been feeling unmotivated and uninspired to do any house-related projects.
I’ve put in a lot of effort over the years to make this character-less house our own and more beautiful than when we bought it, and we still have plenty of fun projects to complete (our whole downstairs, a powder room, a dining room, our porch), but I’ve never felt this unmotivated to pursue a project since I started my blog in 2017.
I’m not the type of content creator who churns out project after project before jumping to our next home to repeat the process (nothing but respect for those who do, but that’s just not me/us). My brand has been built on the idea of slow, secondhand design, and I intend to keep it that way because that’s what I truly love to do.
I know I’m not alone in the concern that this *may* be our forever home if the housing market doesn’t change. I despise the unknown. Of course, there are more important future things to worry about. My family’s health and happiness are always first. But I also wonder, will I ever be able to live in a house that excites me every time I walk through the front door?
Anyway, that was a long-winded way of saying we’re not renovating our kitchen (for now). I truly think everything happens for a reason, and we were meant to live here during this season in our lives. This house has taught me so much – it’s been the perfect blank canvas for me to learn through project after project while discovering my personal style.
I miss being in the depths of projects (i.e. manic paint swatching) and sharing that here. Maybe getting this post out of my drafts folder and off my chest will ignite that spark of motivation and inspiration again, which will, in turn, inspire my audience again too