I still can’t believe this is happening but – I’m pregnant! Angelo and I are having our first baby in June of 2022!
In mid-October, I started feeling really tired and bloated (I’m quite literally always bloated but it was more than usual lol), so I took a pregnancy test and it came back negative. I was like cool, I can continue my excessive black coffee and sashimi consumption.
A few days later, I took the last pregnancy test I had because I was still late, and that was inconclusive. I figured it was negative and there was no point to go buy another set of tests, but Angelo told me to go to the drug store on my lunch break just to be sure, so I went.
I came home, took a test, and while I was scrolling Instagram anticipating a negative result, I looked down and noticed a second faint line. I nearly collapsed on our bathroom floor.
I took 5 (yes, 5) more just to be sure. And they were all positive.
We’ve been trying for some time – in fact after another negative pregnancy test over the summer, I said screw it and planned a trip to Italy for our long-overdue honeymoon, then I scheduled an appointment at a fertility clinic in November. I was starting to feel like I’d never see a positive test without the help of a specialist.
One hour after I finished filling out the paperwork for the fertility specialist was when I took the positive pregnancy test. I couldn’t believe it.
I am so so so beyond grateful for this baby, but between 24/7 nausea, fatigue, anxiety that I’d have a miscarriage, and not feeling myself at all, it’s been a rough few weeks. I’m not afraid to admit that I found myself feeling lonely and depressed. No one told me how hard the first trimester would be, but when things got really hard I had to remember that I was growing a literal human, and this is only temporary.
A few things that got me through the first trimester:
- Unisom and B6 to help with nausea
- Treadmill walks
- Toddler diet carbs (chicken nuggets, french fries)
- <20 min Melissa Wood health workouts (when I had the energy)
- Planning the nursery
- Tik Tok
- Working from home (which I do anyway and I have never been more grateful for that)
- Napping (can’t be nauseous if you’re unconscious)
To keep myself distracted from nausea when I wasn’t working, I naturally began designing two nurseries before we knew whether we were having a boy or a girl. I became so invested in both designs and came up with a boy and girl scheme that I truly loved equally. Like, to the point where I thought “if we have a girl, what am I going to do with this bomb ass boy nursery!?!?!?”
I found that choosing things for the girl nursery (ahem, florals upon florals) came much more naturally – and realized that picking things for the boy nursery really pushed me out of my comfort zone, which I actually enjoyed.
Angelo is the first and only boy after five sisters, so for the last 12 years, we always joked that we’d only have daughters. Needless to say, we were SHOCKED to find out we’re having a boy (during the gender reveal that I told myself I’d never do).
Nursery Design Plans
Unfortunately, my beloved office will become the nursery (that was always the plan), so the wallpaper and everything else has to go. Which is totally fine, I enjoyed it while it lasted and I love a clean slate.
I’m going alllll out for this nursery. No detail left behind. There will be plenty of years filled with typical boy stuff, but since I’ll be spending a lot of days and nights in this room, I want to love it, but of course make it beautiful, comfortable, and functional.
Option 2 (only difference is Althea Citron as ottoman fabric instead of Schumacher Bixi)
I plan to get an upholstered rocker (and recover it in a new fabric), the crib, and a few other things secondhand.
There are so many fabulous vintage swivel/rocking chairs on FB MP that I have saved, so I just need to find one that I like, scoop it up and drop it off to get reupholstered.
Whether it was a boy or girl, I was dead set on this scalloped ottoman from Mainly Baskets. In a boy’s room, it would be so perfect with a masculine print like the Schumacher Bixi velvet.
I have always wanted to use grasscloth in a nursery – I think it’s something that the baby can grow into, it’s not busy like another wallpaper I was considering, and it’s calming.
But alas, I still have plans to incorporate a pattern that I originally considered on the walls and have always thought “if we ever have a boy, I’d love to use this pattern somewhere” so felt like it would actually be fun to use in the rather large closet…
I know that everyone and their mother has used this wallpaper in one room or another, but it doesn’t mean I like it any less. I consider it to be a classic, and will be a beautiful contrast to the green walls.
I plan to share the design and DIY process on my IG stories over the next few months, and hope to finish the room by no later than May. We have so many in-progress projects that I want to finish by Spring (dining room, living room, en suite bath, my closet), and I’ll be sharing all of that on my stories too!
If you’re reading this still on your journey and waiting for your miracle too, I know how difficult this kind of news can be to read. I understand if you need space and please know I’m sending you love.
Angelo and I can’t wait to meet our little guy in June, and I can’t wait to share the nursery process with you!